You Are Not Okay...And That Is Okay...

How many times do you see the words “positive vibes” and “self love” in your social media feeds per day? If I had to guess, I would say “fifty eleven” times! We see it all day, everyday. Everyone is seeking their ultimate self and higher vibrations. Self love and positive vibes is the new wave, and that’s dope! But can we be human for a minute? Some days you really don’t want to be positive and vibrate on higher waves of consciousness. Some days you want to isolate yourself and not deal with your healing and personal growth. How does that make you feel? Do you feel pessimistic? Does it make you feel like you are giving up/in to negativity? I know I do! 

90% of the time, I make very deliberate choices to think positive and be positive. I am making it a habit to affirm myself and have positive talks with myself often. It is very important to me to stay encouraged and motivated because I know it’s building me and I see how much it inspires others, which is important to me! However, I’ve learned the value of making room for my  “blah” days. You know, the ugh I don’t wanna be the bigger person and smile at you as you STARE at me! What you lookin at?!? (Sorry, had a moment) I wanna eat junk food, I don’t want to do something that helps my personal growth. Sometimes, you just wanna be. Be human. Be real. Be vulnerable. And that’s OKAY! 

Your weak moments don’t define you. Your dark days don’t define you. The days you just “don’t feel like it” don’t define you! It’s okay to have a bad day. There’s room for those too! Being positive ain’t always about laughs and encouragement. You don’t lose your positivity by having a bad day just as we don’t lose the sun because it’s raining outside. Sometimes you have to be honest and open with yourself and say “this is where I am today, I have room for this and don’t have to compromise my growth” PERIOD!! I know you follow so many people who are constantly telling you how to feel and do this for peace, do this for happiness, including me! While those things are valid and necessary, please understand that being positive also says I know I’m gonna have some bad days and weak moments but I’m gonna come out...just give me some time.

RECLAIM YOUR TIME, Babe!